I do not know if I'm able to put my feelings into words. I'd try..

We quarrelled last night before turning in. All my fault, I keep thinking he no longer loves me and no longer have any feelings for me. Those are just my part of thinking, he told me. After some time of quarrelling, he suddenly told me that we are not suitable to be together. He told me I'm his burden and his obstacle stone, not his stepping stone. I am his burden, my illness is his burden, everything that I do leads to his problems. I cried and cried for a "i-dunno-how-long" period and fell asleep soundly....

I was awakened by his alarm clock but went back to sleep assuming that he would wake me up as usual, but he didn't.

I woke up only to find that it's 8:05am already. I took a quick shower and off I go to work. When I saw him at the office, he voided me. I wanted to tell him how sorry I was, and how much I love him but because of my stupid "i-want-face" attitude, I kept quiet.

At about 12:30pm, we quarrelled again. All because of our work. We shouted in the office, I cried again and he told me we're really not suitable to be together.

Maybe we're really not meant to be. June 30th is our 3rd year together, we still can't settle the problems between us. I guess it's really time for me to let go. I don't want to be your burden, don't want to be your obstacle. I do not know if time would heal the wounds this relationship inflicted on me, do not know if I'm able to lead this life without you by my side.

I do not know without you if I would be able to eat by myself, sleep each night without you by my side, hunt the monsters without you helping me, roller-blade without you holding me. I wonder what about you, what would you be thinking, what would you be doing?