Sorry for the lack of updates for SO many days.


I guess there's really too much to mention for the days that surpass me like a flash. I'd just do a quick update on my life.

Please take some time to read through and you'd understand how messy my mind is in now.


The feelings I have now, un-describable. Somehow, I just think that human feelings and the way they handle seems to be like alcohol.
"If you mix them well and you know what to add, it turns out to be great. Similarly, if you mix everything together without thinking, they'd turn out to be something you didn't expect it to be."


Who knows? A miracle might happen and it'd turn out to be fantastic? Well, you know that this would be rare and the percentage is low.


That is what I'm feeling now. I'm trying to pull all my feelings back to the place where they were, try not to let them out in case it turns out to be something I'd not expected when I vent it out.


My Workplace:
I think it's been over 10 years since he worked here. Previously he used to leave good impression in my mind. But since recently, he changed. After the salary topic which I was forced by the accountant to speak up to him, he vented his frustations. On that particular day, we talked it over in the morning telling him his salary was wrongly calculated and we would revise it on the upcoming month. Here, here comes the second character of him on me.


The next day morning, he was gently talking to me but in the evening, he tried to bang me in the warehouse with his lorry. I am really confused, is he still the one whom we used be familiar with? Suddenly he turns out to be so another one that I do not know. I am confused.


Can someone just enlighten me?


My Family:
I just can't seem to get along with my two sisters. The way they react to my scoldings, the way they react to my advises, make me reluctant to return home. Dad made me feel closer to him, not the fearful daddy I used to have anymore.



My Boy:
Everything is well, seems that there'd not be any eruption or any sweet mushy stuffs between us. The "honeymoon" period is over. =)

My Friends:
Seems that we have to spend more time together if we want to catch up with our lives. I seem to be missing them too much. =( Looking at the past diaries and the photos we took together, I suddenly seem to miss them too much. Joreen, Jiaxin, Wei Ling, Hui Ying, Wendy, Jiabao, Cindy.. the list just goes on and on without stopping. The photos we took together and the diaries entries I'd made were really unforgettable.

To my friends who are reading this post:
I regret the times that past without you guys. If time were to turn back, I'd want to stop it at those that we've had lot of great times together. As we grew to become adults, our lives change and the circle of friends around us change. We need to find some time to come together and spend time like how we used to.

Notice the changes in my mind? I'm in a fluster and really do not know how to express them out in a shot. The lady is tired....